First Blog!

Hi friends. First time blogger, but I'm not new to the writing scene. I've had my own writing domain before. I have a long journey ahead of me (and dont we all). I feel I should start out by being real.

I was first hospitalized when I was a teenager and due to an onset of late puberty was diagnosed schizo-effective bipolar disorder. I never really felt like I belonged anywhere in society, let alone my schools. So when I was told I had a mental disability that would literally HAUNT me for the rest of my life, I was petrified. The next 8 years was spent weaving in and out of jobs, career choices, bad friends and their influences, trying to find where I belong. Meanwhile, I was drifting further away from the church, my faith, and my god-given purpose; a purpose I still dont know for certain, mind you.

Fast forward to now.

I'm a little more happier because in my latest hospital stay, I met a nice christian man. He had the love of the LORD in his heart, and it was strong enough to set me free. Since then, we hang out weekly, refusing to let time sever a good friendship. We help with each others illness so we stay stable. This, on top my medications and doctors visits keeps me out of the hospital and its been 8 months since I left. I also go to a support group, so I have found some new friends who honestly care about my wellbeing. I have also returned to church. Not my childhood church, a new, nondenominational one. Right by my house! I loved it instantly.

However...

I am in a reappealing process for getting SSD. Buuuut...I was told by my lawyer it would raise red flags to work part-time and school part-time. So, instead of starting my social work program by next Fall, I will have to wait probably another year. Fun. Why would God be putting me through this hassle, making me wait to get my school done and my life started? I dont know. But I know this. I've been in a worse place. And I will find a routine that gets me through this. Expect lots of updates, as well as additional blogs, poetry, and anything else I pour out on here. Okay, I've been on here enough for the night. More stuff to come.